I feel my
Mom universe starting to shift. This
small person who I have the pleasure to call my daughter is becoming less
toddler and more young lady. She hears things. Absorbs. Understands. She feels
tough emotions and wants help navigating them.
I’m so
excited to see the person she is slowly becoming beyond the fits and tantrums
of toddler-hood. I also can’t help but already miss these days gone by. These
days of chubby cheeks and forgetting the “y” in yesterday.
I feel I’m
wandering through Joni Mitchell’s song Both Sides Now.
I see
motherhood from both sides now.
I imagine this won’t be the only time I’ll feel this way. I imagine it will rush over me many times throughout my motherhood journey.
But, today, I’m
moving out of the stage where kisses fix all hurt and into a stage where I must
explain why it’s OK if she isn’t someone’s “best friend”. We’re done with
diapers, cribs, and clothing sizes that end with the letter “T”! She asks what hard-to-define words like "bullshit" mean {Note to self: Watch your mouth!}. She watches closely
as I curl my hair and asks me why I do so.
Yet, she still wants to live with us forever, marry her dad and grow up to be Adele.
Yet, she still wants to live with us forever, marry her dad and grow up to be Adele.
Yup, I’ve
look at motherhood from both sides now.
I’m realizing
I don’t know motherhood at all.
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